I am sorry for this late entry, this week I had a bit of writers block. I am going to blame it on this awful head cold I have been battling, but I couldn't
put it off any longer. So I poured some green tea and got a snack (to help me think) and sat down to write. To catch you up. I am no longer in my walk/run
training, I am officially just running. This past week I ran 20 minutes strait on all my run days. I still am not at a Loooovvvvvveee level of running,
but it is creeping up there more and more. I also made a few discoveries this week that I would like to share with you.
First I have discovered that the first 15 minutes are the kicker. As you may remember from previous posts I have struggled to run for extended periods
of time. There have been a few days that I did the deed, but overall I tend to want to stop and walk for even just a minute. Well I discovered that
after I hit 15 minutes I don't want to stop as badly. Maybe that is how long it takes to get my rhythm going or for my brain to accept that I am actually
running, but whatever it is, it works. It is just getting through those first 15 that is the new struggle.
Second thing I discovered relates to my goal from the last post. In my last post I reported that I was struggling to not focus on the time I had left
to run and instead focus on the run or lose myself in thought, whatever. I needed to learn how to not dwell on the clock. Well there was such a simple
solution to this problem I can't believe it took me so long to apply it. Cover the clock!! Duh.... I know, this seems like a no brainer, but for some
reason I thought that if I covered the clock on the cable box (because that is the only clock in that room..), then maybe the remote would not be able
to send a signal to the box and heaven forbid I wouldn't be able to change the channel if I didn't like what I was watching. Its insane what goes through
my head sometimes. I am the master at justifying and twisting situations. Of course I dont NEED to be able to change the channel, isnt that the point
of "losing myself" so that I am not so focused on what is happening around me? It shouldn't matter if the show is boring, I am running, and honestly
if it truly is that boring I can always stop and move the box, change the channel and get back on the tread mill. Sometimes I make things so difficult.
So after having this conversation with myself (in my head so I didn't frighten people) I decided to cover up the clock with a small box that I may
still be able to get a signal around... (I just couldn't let go of that fear of not being able to use the remote). Let me tell you this, WOW. Amazing,
superb, fantastic, best thing I ever did. Suddenly I was running for those terrible 15 minutes and didn't even realize when I was past it. I'm not
gonna lie, I still knew and felt like I was running so it isn't a perfect system, I didn't suddenly feel like I was sitting in a bistro on a warm sunny
day drinking a latte. I was still sweating and running on a treadmill so my method didn't totally take me away mentally. However it did help me with
the time issue.
Third thing I discovered this week is that it totally sucks when I miss a run. Yes I know that I am not supposed to miss a run and so far I have done
really well with this aspect of training but lets face it folks, this is me we are talking about it was bound to happen with our hectic schedule. It
was Saturdays run and I was at my brothers house and we had a million things to do and then we went to a WILD game that night, PLUS I wasn't feeling
well at all. But no excuses, I should have ran outside at his house or done my run on friday before I left or Sunday when we got home but that didn't
happen, I just skipped the Saturday run. However I think that there is always positive out of every negative even if it is just a lesson learned. And
in this case it was most definitely a lesson learned and a new discovery of myself. Missing that run felt terrible. I felt heavier the whole weekend.
I felt like I was even sicker by not running, I also felt like I had less energy and let me tell you folks, I was depressed. I was really really down
about it and I didn't expect that of myself. Maybe it is just that I hate cheating and am a guilt ridden person who can not do anything without suffering
days, months and sometimes years of guilt after the act. Or maybe it is because running gives you endorphins and suddenly taking away that steady stream
is like cutting out an antidepressant with no warning. Who knows what the reason is, all I know is that I am thankful to have experienced it. I will
NEVER miss a run again. In fact my husband missed his as well, he was on an airplane most of the day but remember no excuses, but he felt the same
way. We discussed this on our drive home, how much we both regretted not running and how much we didn't realize the impact running is starting to have
on us. I feel like we are starting a new life at times. I mean a lot of things are still the same, thank god because I do love my life, but some things
have changed, we plan for our runs, we eat healthier so as to help improve our runs, we come home earlier at night to be able to run the next morning.
So many changes but all positive.
Now for the best of the week. We even went shopping! Not for boots or shoes or anything awesome like that, but for some running clothes! I still need
better shoes and some running tights or leggings, but we got several good tops and even some arm sleeves in case its chilly the morning of the race.
In conclusion I want to say that I sincerely hope after Grandmas Marathon we will continue to run and I see many more races in our future!